DarkArc012
Lillit is on lethal form in her anthem of defiance. Catch her if you can.
Holiday
Lillit is a one woman riot-act on her new release. Defiantly taking her life back from those who’d want to control her, she hits the road with sunlit uproads ahead and all her clouds in the rear view.
“I told darkStylus that this track should take no prisoners” Lillit says, that if The Great CollideHer was scary wild, this had to be terrifying.
“They took a lot of inspiration from my half-homeland Armenia, twisting those tonal scales into screaming acid lead sounds. In the end I was dialling up my beats to catch them, they went crazy. It’s a brutal end result, but this was never going to be a pop song about hearts and kittens.
“That was the way it had to be for me. I have encountered so much control in peeple’s relationships, just such a toxic energy, but even when you know it’s wrong, that you have to escape, but how? This is a story about me saying ‘this ends today, I’m gone.' “
“It sounds tough to do, but your life is yours. There’s more support than you think, and bullies always cowards in the end.
“Sohrow some choice clothes in a suitcase, put their keys through the letterbox, and hit the road
“You are no-one’s posession.”
“It’s a brutal end result, but this was never going to be a pop song about hearts and kittens”
LISTEN NOW
Heres my deal, I’ll leave you behind
And from here on in, pay you no mind
But if you could me see now, I hope something struck you
That the shadows of my sunshine they spell out ‘fuck you’
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I needed a way away
To sieze the day not hideaway
I could not be true, I could not stay
So this day today I start my holiday
I’ve known the longest I had to run from you
The things you say, the things you do
Cos it seems for the longest time
Ive had no voice, nor money mine
We started fast and got faster still
And it all seemed tied to my own free will
A big big car and escape to ride in
From all the little miseries I loved to hide in
But pretty soon your control it crept in
Like the devil hiding under the bed I slept in
The smallest thing could make you shout loud
Or you’d make a big scene when I was with my crowd
My friends would whisper whats up with that?
And I replied ‘oh that, thats just a spat’
But that’s what it wasn’t when we got home
When I met the person you are alone alone
Mirrors and fingers would start to break
Little me realised her big mistake
I knew to find a way away
I couldn’t stick around another day
We were never true, I could not stay
I’ll never come back from this holiday
I’ll leave a little gift from me to you
The things you say, the things you do
I recorded it all, like when you broke my nose
Now everybody sees and everybody knows
You made me feel like like a real dumb dunce
Because it happened so slow then all at once
Your whispering poison came creeping in
Under the door of the room I was weeping in
Charm when you wanted, but no heart, no wealth
So you blamed me that you hate yourself
You know I never realised just how small
You are in yourself, and I hope you recall
Despite all your efforts to cheat, deceive me
You were wrong in your saying ‘you’ll never leave me’
Well that day came, and I’m living it here
So it’s Good bye my dear, and I wish you fear
Because it was I who decided to bring to an end
All of your stupid shit that I used to defend
I want you to know you wont control me a minute longer
You couldn’t kill me you just made me stronger
Deep down I knew I’d make my way away
From the things you do and the things you say
All the things you tried to make me stay
The rest of my life is a holiday
And I’ll never look back on that sorry time
But everyday you will think “she once was mine”
That that buzzes in your head is a thought divine
That Your life is clouds and mine sunshine
Deep down I knew I’d make my way away
From the things you do and the things you say
All the things you tried to make me stay
The rest of my life is a holiday
Heres my deal, ill leave you behind
And from here on in, pay you no mind
But if you could me see now, I hope something struck you
That my road ahead, it spells out ‘fuck you’
In the end I got my way away
I seized the day, I didnt hideaway
You were not true, so I did not stay
So this day today, begins my holiday
Heres my deal, ill leave you behind
And from here on in, pay you no mind
But if you could me see now, I hope something struck you
That the shadows of my sunshine they spell out ‘fuck you’
In the end I got my way away
I seized the day, I didnt hideaway
You were not true, so I did not stay
So this day today, begins my holiday
So this day today, begins my holiday
